First Day Mayhem

June 12th,  2008 was my first day back at work since i had liver problem for more than 3 weeks. Lots of changes happened at the office and more problems occurred. As i thought, problems were about the production capabilities and reliabilities that the company hold. I was intentionally back to work that day because in every Thursday, management always having a weekly meeting to discuss every aspects and obstacles on the field.

As always at precisely 14:00 PM all the managers and coordinators were gathered in the meeting room. I was amazed that all of them were present at the time and it never happen before. The Planning and Production Manager made the opening speech, told everyone that he has a big problems and express his "welcome back" to me with saying "finally our mediator/arbiter has arrived so we hope that no more uncompromisable dispute would happen again". I was stunned and keep processing what he just said "uncompromisable dispute". What did happen in the last meeting?.

For about 4,5 hours we had a full of disputes meeting but i was relieved that the disputes were solved and will be evaluated on the next weekly meeting. I have a major concerns about the evaluating process for the next weekly meeting, i have a problem with the top management commitment about their vision and, of course, their commitment to supporting our problem solving process. We always had a promise and certain procedures to handle the problems but when the next weekly meeting come lots of us didn't fulfill the promise and done the procedures, they always make a promise "next week we will" and when the next weekly meeting occurred they said it again "next week we will".

The meeting ran very well all of them were very cooperative to each other and i didn't see any of "uncompromisable disputes" or a "brutal disputes" happen, it just run very smoothly and very well. At precisely 16:15 PM my right stomach was in agony, i felt it very warm and i remember that i had a sudden fever. I was afraid that my liver problem strikes back and i had to rest (again). Approximately 16:45 PM i left the meeting for awhile and went to the bathroom, wash my face and i was shocked.. my face burning red, and at that moment i knew my liver problem was recrudescent.

I attending that meeting in a very painful way, i couldn't concentrate and i accidentally taking a nap in the middle of the meeting. What an embarrassing moment! and at around 18:20 PM the meeting was over and i said to my staff she should typewrite all the meeting conclusions. I rushed to my office room grab all my things and walk straight to the parking lot.

At 19:00 PM i arrived at my house and i felt very awful, queasy and i was very exhausted. I bought a dinner and i took a bath, sweep the floor just a little and watch tv. In about 10 minutes later.. i throw out and i almost unconscious. It was the moment that i've made my decision that tomorrow i won't go to work and went back to my parent home to rest (again).

Well, if only that day, at work, one of the Director present at the office i would like to meet them and talk about my resignation. But it didn't happen because they didn't present at the office.

What a shame..

I Found This Picture So Very Very Interesting

Well, i don't know what to say and how i supposed to react with this picture :

I'm not oppose the gay lifestyle but, what i can i say, i couldn't express myself about this one. I obtained the picture from this website and i only could say that the person has done an extreme avowal to the world. I have to agree that in a way of islam, gay lifestyle considered to be a great sin and a disgrace, but once again i have a very liberal perception about this. I did not and will not avoid, feel ashamed to them who are gay.

What i think is, it's about "free will" of a person how to behave, to opt their own way of life they think it's very compatible and comfortable with them. I respect that.

Courtesy of : http://incredimazing.com/page/Purple_Jihad

Final Lab Test

Today i received a fax from Prodia Laboratory. They fax me the blood test result and i am very relieve that my GOT and GPT level are back to normal. Not just that, according to the test result i also didn't have a Hepatitis A, B or C disease so i was sick because i was too exhausted and only liver swelling. I guess this week is my last day(s) to resting and relaxing at home, i have to admit 3 weeks at home and just relax, watching movies, reading books, browsing internet, playing PSP were the best times i had.

So, my days at home near the end and i have to prepare all the things that i should've bring back to work, maybe at monday. I promised myself that i won't work there any longer i just want to adapt myself in the workplace situation first then write my resignation letter and then fly away from there. I might be back to Jakarta and focusing to seek another career while learning TOEFL, International Politic, etc in case there's an opening  vacancies at Foreign Department.

Well, good times passing by really quickly.. but why bad times moving so slowly?

White Uniform Havoc

Last night i called my friend and we talked a lot about the company. How was the company going, what's new at the office and what's the newest info/gossip at the office (well, we men love to gossip too). I was shocked, and still in shock, when he told me that his Coordinator would leave the company for good because one of our Director have done a terrible act to him.

His salary has been cut down for about 15%. Her reason because he was demission to Officer not a Coordinator anymore. Well, my friend he is HRD Manager and for what he told me there were no rules to cut down salary based on the demotion process. He told me about lots of seniors who demoted to a staff, not manager anymore, but they still paid with their last salary as a manager. They didn't get cut off like this one.

I asked him how much is his Coordinator earn every month? he said about 4,5 million. I was shocked again.. i don't mean to underrate someone's professional title or whatsoever, but i am a Manager, obviously more superior than Coordinator, and i earn less than that!. I said this to my friend last night and he didn't believe me, he said it was impossible if my salary is lower than his Coordinator. I reaffirm again to him and he still didn't believe me. Well, i think i should show him my salary slip but then again why i should do that? it's stupid.

I have to admit, about this interesting case, it encourage me more to leave this "amateur company" as soon as possible. I said in all my blogs, this company have the potential to be a greater company if the right person holds the control. So far, it's still an "amateur company". For one year i have a great memories working there and have great friends but sadly i have to leave them.

It's time to seek another career.

A Very Interesting Pictures Indeed...

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White Uniform Visited

At 09:30 am, i was shocked but happy that my work colleage visit me today. There were Mr. Firman (HRD Manager), Mr. Satriadi (HRD Coordinator) and Mr. Soim (Company's Driver). I never thought that they come to visit me due to high work tension at the present. They told me a lot about what happen at the office. The good news is our new customer, from Japan, agreed to do joint business with us but with one condition they will come back again next week to inspect all the necessary requirements and the quality of our process.

My colleage said that Mr. Suda was happy with our company positive progress on matching their quality level but he needed more time to observe and if he assure that our company would maintain the quality then he would give a recommendation to his superior in Japan. Well, i hope everything will be alright and everything will process as it meant to be.

A little disruption enacted when our Production Manager told Mr. Suda and Mr. Billy that one of our machine was in progress producing the item that they (Japan) ordered. But when they saw the actual process on site, they were disappointed because it wasn't true. This kind of behavior is a boomerang for us, this kind of behavior showing everybody outside the company that we commit to what we said is a very stupid behavior. In my opinion, we should stay low and don't bother what people think about our company but think about what we're doing to the company to make it better and bigger. I really against the "bluffing" behavior that most of our manpower did. It didn't and doesn't give us an advantage to whatever we have done on the contrary it will give us a negative views from our competitors.

But then again, i really can do something about the joint business process.. before i resign from my company i would like to give a nice gift, once more, to my company.

Between my Righteous and Inequity

It's been 13 days i didn't go to my office, since i have my liver problem, i think so many things about my future career on my current workplace. It has been 1 year and 2 months i join the company and honestly i couldn't do more. It goes like this, it's a family company. Built based on trust between the employees for about 23 years and i admit it become the basic core of this company culture.

I didn't say it was bad thing but what i'm trying to explain is, it becomes the "predator" for the company itself. For what i saw and what observe, this company could grow up more bigger and could be an independent company that produce it's own product. There are 780 employees and based on what i see, the company hire too many worker. If i was the owner, i should put my money in buying new machines, replace the old ones and train the potential worker in my company.

I hate to say that our quality reject is too high and it keep going higher month by month. The owner has his own policy in running the company, "it is prohibit to reject customers order, whatever it takes we should produce and produce". I could agree with his policy if he invest his money for buying new machines, measurement tools, replace the old machines and build a new place for a specific production line. The truth is, from what i heard, last time the company bought machines was in 2006 and since then stood still.

We have to fulfill 4 million items production in a month. The fact is, with our current tools and machines we only can meet 2 million items and the ridiculous part is the owner and board of directors knew about the problem but didn't take a countermeasure to solve it. My colleage, Production Manager, Product Support Manager, Quality Manager, always tells me that this year is the worst year for this company. We keep on accepting new orders instead fixing quality rejects problem first, they regret why this company keep pursuing in quantity not quality. I agree with them and when i asked them if they have report this issue to the owner, what would he said about this. They answered the owner never give the solutions, he just need us to fulfill the customer demand whatever it takes.

Last time i checked, my company were in financial trouble. I just found out that after all this time, we never had a profit from each of our production. Apparently, the owner knew about this and from what i observe he didn't do anything. There are too many problems in the company right now. What i hate most is i have two superior, one of them is very cool person know lots of technical things and have a potential become a great leader in the future and one is very irritating me all the time.

I manage three subjects there are Quality Management System, Occupational Health and Safety Aspects and Research & Development. Big responsibility i have around my shoulder but i try to keep it up, but what happen is she keep filling me with insignificant issue and force me to do beyond my job authority. If only she has a sense of curiousity, sense of team work and sense of good leadership i would do what she wants to. She's the most stubborn, irritating, annoying and selfish person i ever know. Maybe i should give her a psychological tests and assess her personality so that i know how i suppose to behave in front of her.

She is the reason, my biggest reason, why i keep thinking i should resign and leave this company and seek another career on another place. I could not bear the pressure that she gives me every second without a proper judgement why she order something to do.

But beside her, what i really think is this company should grow bigger and should start thinking about quality not quantity. I strongly believe if the owner's policy still a ravenous policy the company will be like this forever and never expand to a much establish company. It is a pity if the owner and board of directors not taking any kind of act to develop the company.

Another part that i hate in this company is, there are no "entrepreneur mental" among the owner and board of directors. I have a job to audit our supplier and our sub contractor, from what i've seen the board of director or maybe just the owner were present at time i was auditing. Almost 34 suppliers and sub contractors i visited, the board of director or the owner always present. Once i told them that it was an honor that board of director or the owner present and follow the audit process they said.. "it is very important for us to know what we can do to fulfill our customer's will and to take an appropriate act to correct our non conformities that our customer's found. We have the authority to make a decision in a minute, so we hope that we could fix whatever at our fastest time".

I was amazed that 90% of our supplier and sub contractors highest management said the same thing!. In the contrary, it never happen in my company. Our board of directors and the owner are seldom or never want to present at the time when the our customer visit our plant. The most ridiculous is our board of director doesn't even have a guts to say something even i wrote them the speech note!.

There are lots of funny and ridiculous part happened in my company, but in the meantime i have to be more patience and more enthusiast applying another job. I hope what i wrote here won't hurts someone's feeling.